Ever have those emails or posts, in which you pour out your soul and say all the things that need be said? Oh, I have so many, I cannot tell you how many times, I’ve written something and never sent it. The letters never sent. That is what I call the pile, everyone has them I’m sure. It is the things we don’t say that show us an in dept picture of whom we are on the inside. How often I’ve sent messages and afterward reflect, that maybe I could have worded it better. Then I get to thinking… had I wrote it this way instead of that way, would it had gotten a reply or a positive/negative reaction? It is not that I dwell on stuff. I try not to, but then you can’t help but think about things like that.
In case the curiosity got to you, I will tell you the reason I never sent those letters; for one, the ones meant form a certain someone, might have fallen on deaf ears. The others, were meant for a place that has no address, or place, Heaven. Surprised? Don’t be. After a time I delete those missives. In them I cry, I laugh, and scream from time to time. That is only when a good song can’t cure the mood or add to the greatness of it.
That is not to say that I’m speechless most of the time. Far from it, I can talk anyone’s ear off. My family can attest to that, if Martin were here he could attest to that to. He was the first to bring it to my attention. It was okay then as it is now, as he used to tell me, “girlie you lucked out, because I have a PhD in listening and patience. :). Sometimes I take a chance and say what’s on my mind, then I just hope, that when I do, it’s a happy thing and it’s well received and believed. When I’m angry, then just hold on because unlike hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, I’d say hell hath no fury like yours truly when she’s mad.
So in closing, whether you write it down, or say it out loud, find some way to share the joys and sorrows of your life with that special someone it makes the load of life easier to bear.